It wasn't a switch that was abruptly flipped, but a growing lure, a pulling string that gently tugged me towards realization, blooming under the warm embrace of acceptance. There was something gratifying about using persuasion rather than coercion, about subtly controlling a scenario, being the dominating party in a consensual adult space. My clients on the other side of the cam chose to submit, and I reveled in that power. Still, from my screen to theirs, I remained ever conscious of their limits and my responsibility to respect them. The thing to remember about BDSM is that despite the control and the power plays, it's fundamentally about trust, consent, and communicating limits. I guess in some ways, my preference for dominance was less about control and more about the power to make others feel safe. It's an intoxicating paradox.
But it's not all whips and handcuffs; dominance comes in different shades. There are times when you have to be soft, almost nurturing. And so, I cultivated an atmosphere of authority glazed with a sheen of care. I was the dominant partner yes, but also the confidante and the guide. The person on the other side of the screen shared their deepest fantasies and vulnerabilities with me – that they might not have shared with anyone else.
People often assume that those who work in the adult industry always knew what they were getting into, but like most things in life, it was a path of exploration. Over these five years in the industry, I moved from an uncertain newbie with a curiosity for dominance to a seasoned cam model, toying with power dynamics. I've learned so much about myself, about human longing, and what it means to trust somebody with your deepest, darkest fantasies. It's a job that demands tolerance and understanding, balancing an outward performance with sincere empathy, and I wouldn't give up this journey for anything else. This is the space I occupy now – dominant, comfortable, and consensually wielding the power of curiosity.
